In the middle of the night, I was awakened by the pain from the wound after the gingivectomy. So I naturally recited the guru's mantra "Hum Ge Re Zhanjia Baza Sede!" Over and over again, the pain was slowly reducing.
My heart swelled up with great gratitude and longing for the Great Grace Guru. It has only been a year and a half since I took refuge, but during this time, under the guidance of the Great Grace Guru, my attitude towards life has gradually changed.
I am a person who is used to being willful, and my "ego" is particularly heavy. Due to family and work reasons, many things had to be decided independently by myself. Life is not all smooth sailing, it can even be said to be bumpy. I am always living in endless entanglements and troubles about various things. Once, when he experienced a frame and could not clear his grievances, he tried to prove his innocence with death.
I began to look for ways to get out of such painful days. In the summer of 2013, life hit me hard again. My good friend persuaded me to participate in the release, the first time I came into contact with the release, the first time I heard the name Sia Rongbo Khenpo, and the first time I saw the guru's Dharma image, so kind and kind, as if I were a relative I hadn't seen for a long time. Since then, I have been participating in the release of living beings, copying scriptures every day, and inviting the recitation collection of the Lao Rong Buddhist Institute to do my homework every morning and evening. At the same time, I also began to read the books of Guru Daen, "The Way of Silence", "The Play of Life", "Flowers Bloom in Stages", "Seeing the World through Buddhism", and Guru Rinpoche's biography "The Mandala of Joy". Guru Daen's in-depth exposition of Buddhism, his preaching on the merits of releasing living beings and vegetarianism, every word flowed into my heart like a warm current, making me burst into tears and think about it for a long time.
May 2014 - Nearly a year after participating in the release, I started a vegetarian diet. And from always preferring meat to vegetarian food is only one night, the night before I was still eating barbecue with my friends, the next day I couldn't eat any meat, including fish, shrimp, seafood, etc., I ate stomach pain, diarrhea, vomiting, and all kinds of discomfort.
I told my family about my changes, but what led to their incomprehension. To my surprise, I didn't feel particularly upset as before, because my family must have been worried that I would be malnourished and affect my health. I think my family will understand it over time.
In December 2014, I experienced the most heart-wrenching separation of life and death, my mother died of a serious illness, and my father, who had always been in good health, died suddenly, and the time between the two was only 17 days apart. In the biting cold wind of winter, I was like a dead leaf, leaving the big tree, and was blown aimlessly in the air by the cold wind, and the pain in my heart could not be soothed.
How to get rid of and change? My heart is calling again. In a psychology class, I happened to meet a brother, and when I heard that she was a disciple of Sia Rong Bo Khenpo, I actually hugged her and cried bitterly, regardless of the occasion, and told her that I wanted to take refuge in the Three Jewels of Guru. The compassionate brother promised to help me sign up, but I had to wait for the opportunity. The guru is not in Beijing most of the time, and I don't know when he will come, but he will definitely notify me when there is a notice of refuge. I nodded excitedly with anticipation.
In January 2015, just a month later, a miracle happened again. Not long after I met the senior brother, one night, in a dream, under an auspicious golden light, Master Daen nodded and smiled at me. When I woke up early in the morning, I couldn't wait to call the senior brother and tell her about the auspicious dream. My brother's answer surprised me even more: "The guru is coming to Beijing! You can take refuge!"
"Really? Really?" I couldn't believe my ears. The Great Grace Guru really came to lead the disciples.
I finally met my guru and became a true disciple of the Buddha. On the day I took the refuge vows, I kept kneeling (because the tumor on my buttocks was so big that it would be very painful to sit down, so I had to kneel) and listened carefully to every word of the guru's lectures. On that day, I truly saw the auspicious colorful lights and the extraordinary white mandala surrounding the guru, and took photos to record this sacred moment.
With a "pull rope", with a loud snap of the guru's fingers. I returned home like a lost prodigal son and met my kind elders.
Whenever I encounter difficulties, I always pray to the guru as soon as possible and recite the guru's mantra - Umge Re Zhanjia Bazar Sede! My heart will be peaceful and pure, and I will feel that the guru is always by my side and guiding me.
The compassion of the guru also touches me all the time. When I met the guru, the guru said with concern: "Disciple, you have altitude sickness, don't kowtow, so don't have a headache again." You have to take more nectar pills. I timidly prayed to the guru, "Can the disciple practice preliminaries?" Great, totally! Go to the school and sign up!" Guru Daen happily picked up the Dharma book and slapped it heavily on the top of the disciple's head, giving him blessings.
Listening to and thinking is a homework that Buddhist disciples must do every day, and it is something that the Great Grace Guru pays great attention to. I remember that the guru once personally warned me, "It is good that you have a pure mind. But you must listen to and think well, so that you can make greater progress. I always remember this sentence.
In the process of studying, I gradually found that I was changing in my study - the previous severe "ego" was slowly letting go, the surrounding environment did not change, and my mind changed, becoming less prone to troubles, and becoming quiet and happy. I know that this is the blessing and guidance of the guru, and the power of Buddhism.
In 2016, Master Daen launched the call for tens of billions of seven lines of prayer from Master Lotus Vajra. I was fortunate to participate in the statistical work of the seven lines of the Lotus Master Vajra Prayer Ten Billion Group Meditation. Although it is a bit hard, you need to spend time reading WeChat frequently, you need to answer questions raised by your senior brother in time, and you need to communicate with other senior brothers at any time. But what I gained was more confidence in the guru and the joy of being able to meet the Dharma in this lifetime.
Every time I count the cultivation, I laugh happily when I see the number reported by the brothers. Sometimes I would call or WeChat to chat with my brothers, listen to them talk about how to overcome difficulties and recite diligently, listen to them talk about their urgency to take refuge in the guru, and listen to them talk about how to make a pilgrimage to Wutai Mountain with the book "On the Cool Mountain".
Guru Padmasambhava said: "When the iron bird flies in the air and the iron horse gallops on the ground, it is the arrival of the Dharma Era, and at this time, Buddhist tantra will flourish and spread throughout the world." ”
The great grace guru works tirelessly to promote the Dharma, which is the practice of the teachings of Master Lian. Every time I see the guru, I can always see fatigue in his joyful, soft, and firm gaze. I am willing to follow you for generations, and under your guidance, I will do my best to promote the Dharma.
