I have been a child who likes to be petty, clever, cheat, and have a lot of greed and lustfulness. When I was in elementary school, I fantasized about being with my female classmates. I had a strong lustfulness. When I entered junior high school, I bought it at home. DVD, There is a third-level film. I secretly watched it several times. After being caught by my family, I didn't repent. I kept peeking at it again and again, and I found various channels to buy romance. \I will watch pornographic novels and discs, and erotic scenes on TV.Looking back now, I feel very regretful.He is now 29 years old and has been sexually sexual for 15 years.
When I was in junior high school, my grades were very good, but I started to get into adultery in the third year of junior high school. I watched Hong Kong third-level films and erotic movies. From then on, my intelligence began to decline. I was not enterprising and could no longer concentrate on studying.I also began to experience various disastrous results, and the high school entrance examination results were not ideal. It took my family 3,000 yuan to barely enter the ideal high school.During my high school years, I didn’t know how to restrain myself and continued to commit adultery. My academic performance has always been in the middle and lower reaches. Looking back, I think about it because of my sexual desire, my kidney essence has declined and I have lost my will.In addition, during high school, I also communicated and analyzed and watched erotic movies with my classmates, took them home to watch them secretly, and there were often scenes of adultery in my mind every day.My high school study has always been unsatisfactory. Every time I have the idea of sexual misconduct, I encounter all kinds of discomforts and get masturbation. I can’t concentrate on my studies, and I’m very frivolous in doing things.I am ashamed of being sexually abused, which also leads to family discord, and my parents often quarrel.I often complain on the grounds of quarrels between my parents, and use it to cover up all kinds of discomforts caused by my adultery. I complain that my parents are not capable and have no good conditions at home. I close myself in my own space, secretly browse pornographic websites in the Internet cafe, constantly recalling the scenes of adultery in my mind, and buying various nude videos of my adultery. Once, I even ordered pornographic videos on Zhuoyue.com with a fake name.In the end, I failed in the college entrance examination and barely went to a very bad university.After I arrived in college, I still didn't repent and continued to commit adultery. I also learned to download pornographic movies from pornographic websites. My personality is more introverted, inferior and extreme, I don't like to deal with people, and my academic performance plummeted, and I often feel anxious.I kept masturbating in college and had a very strong relationship with my classmates in the same dormitory. Over the past four years, I have watched thousands of pornographic movies, novels and thousands of erotic pictures, and I have said too many obscene words and too many lustful thoughts.Because of adultery, I went astray, and kept dreaming about it all day long, hoping to get rich overnight, trade stocks, be greedy, extremely frigid, and waste a lot of youth.
These are all caused by the loss of kidney essence due to the evil lust, which makes one's karma grow bigger and bigger. Every time he sets a learning goal, he fails to take the junior year's postgraduate entrance examination, and he is ready to start committing adultery many times, resulting in another failure, doing nothing every day and being shameless.People in their 20s still need their parents to support themselves, making their families worry and worry.While taking the civil service exam, he masturbated while taking a shower in a hotel and lost again.In desperation, I could only work. I felt this and that at work, I didn’t repent, and continued to commit adultery and fell in love with others online. I was scolded by my leaders and despised by my colleagues. After I got home, I masturbated, had poor energy, poor learning ability and efficiency, had a lot of acne on my face, had memory loss, didn’t like exercise, and stayed at home every day to eat and drink.During work, he also overdraws his credit card to trade stocks and futures.Under the temptation of classmates, I ate, drink, have fun, and have been prostituting hundreds of times, which greatly damaged my blessings. Here I apologize deeply to the people I have hurt.Because adultery eventually brought disaster to me.Thankfully, I started to realize sexual misconduct.
Falling in love, losing work, and having no money on the stock market is a bad retribution for adultery. I have thought about committing suicide several times. At that time, my father got seriously ill, but because of my poor intelligence and emotional intelligence, I was childish and ridiculous in doing things.I sincerely thank you here for helping my family and classmates when I am in trouble. I am grateful to you and wish you happiness and health.
Then when my father was seriously ill, I was like an unemployed vagrant, doing nothing all day, not making progress, and not repent.Weak body and hair falls off.I don’t have the ability to support my father, but instead often makes him angry and make up lies to deceive myself and others every day.He also went to prostitution secretly, but when he was not successful on a business trip, he did not repent and was very guilty.Until my father passed away, I secretly went to prostitution, which ruined human relations. Here I deeply repent to my father.I hope I will repay the debt of family affection in this life in my next life.
Thanks to the gods in heaven, I have exposed to Buddhism. I insist on reciting the original vows of Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva every day. With the blessing of Buddhism, I began to study Buddhism, constantly discovering my own problems of sexual misconduct, and insisting on releasing animals.Gradually, he changed his bad habits of watching pornographic movies, masturbation and prostitution, and insisted on releasing animals.But during the period of abstaining from sexual misconduct, I gave up studying Buddhism and entered the stock market again. I suffered heavy losses and owed more than 200,000 yuan in debt this time.During the years I worked, many people have introduced me to my girlfriend one after another, with more than 20 in total, but I have not found a partner because of my excessive sexual misconduct.I am still single now, with no success in my career, and my family is not going well. My mother suffers in the countryside. My hair is now falling off, and I am obscene, with no spirit and no righteousness. Thank God, I realized that I still have a long way to get rid of adultery. I have been living off for 15 years and cannot be quit in 2-3 years, but constantly quitting adultery has given me hope and the blessings I have brought to me.
In the process of abstaining from sexual misconduct, whenever I abstain from sexual misconduct and studying Buddhism, I will be clear about my heart and have few desires, good luck and blessings will follow, and I will be able to do it at work.Whenever I have sexual acts and thoughts, all kinds of discomforts will immediately come. In the second half of last year, I mistakenly became sexually discomfort again and talked to female colleagues in the unit. My heart was constantly full of sexually discomforts, which led to various discomforts in my work. But I didn't regret it. When I was renting a house, I eavesdropped on the voices of the couple next door's love, and I was ashamed.I am still obsessed with it, I do not want to repent, and I am indecent.
On March 16, 2016, I vowed not to commit adultery anymore and not to masturbate anymore. If I have a family in the future, I will reduce my regular sexual intercourse.Adhere to the principle of studying things to achieve knowledge, be sincere and upright, cultivate oneself, manage the family, govern the country, and pacify the world, and make yourself full of positive energy.And help others eliminate the idea of sexual misconduct.
Finally, I hope that all people in the world who have a history of adultery or those who are adultery can learn from my lessons, get rid of adultery as soon as possible, and embark on the right path.Do more meaningful things for yourself, your family, society and your country.
